weird day man. i feel unmotivated. i feel astray. i have no classes. this is what i dreamed about for so long. but really, was it? probably not. i never disliked school. i disliked the stress. but man, i miss the stress. i miss the deadlines. i miss the decisions, the quick-thinking. i stopped by a local pub and grabbed a beer after work. i just sat there and wondered what am i doing? i have so much more to do, but i have no energy. i have no drive. my goals are right there. i have to think it's only a momentary thing. i know it is. i'm just getting accustomed to new routines. i have to make myself go, no more chapters to be read. no more tests/quizzes/exams. man, those were great. it's fine. i'll get out of it. i wish it warm.
man, i wish it was warm.
when i was at the pub, i scrolled through my phone and realized i literally have no friends in this town. they all live somewhere else. no one to grab a beer with. i've lived here for practically all my life and i have no one to grab a beer with. that's amazing. i need a new phone. with new people's names.
i'm either going to do two things tonight: 1) go to the gym or, 2) get some tostida chips and eat tamales and watch crap tv. i should probably sit here and polish my resume.
i think i'll do that.
watch that man!!
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its always interesting to be in those moments after you have ridden off into the sunset. The story still goes on and its like...soooo what now? That only ends when you die. Just keep moving towards where you want to be. Remember that concentric circle thing and always be looking for where you purpose is taking you. (i say this mostly to remind myself.)
love you man... i know you're going to do big things, regardless of whether you know exactly what it is yet.
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