lady grinning soul

weird day man. i feel unmotivated. i feel astray. i have no classes. this is what i dreamed about for so long. but really, was it? probably not. i never disliked school. i disliked the stress. but man, i miss the stress. i miss the deadlines. i miss the decisions, the quick-thinking. i stopped by a local pub and grabbed a beer after work. i just sat there and wondered what am i doing? i have so much more to do, but i have no energy. i have no drive. my goals are right there. i have to think it's only a momentary thing. i know it is. i'm just getting accustomed to new routines. i have to make myself go, no more chapters to be read. no more tests/quizzes/exams. man, those were great. it's fine. i'll get out of it. i wish it warm.

man, i wish it was warm.

when i was at the pub, i scrolled through my phone and realized i literally have no friends in this town. they all live somewhere else. no one to grab a beer with. i've lived here for practically all my life and i have no one to grab a beer with. that's amazing. i need a new phone. with new people's names.

i'm either going to do two things tonight: 1) go to the gym or, 2) get some tostida chips and eat tamales and watch crap tv. i should probably sit here and polish my resume.

i think i'll do that.

watch that man!!

simon smith and the amazing dancing bear

man this office is lame. nice, lame people.

here is a great interview with niall ferguson.

here is the link for the entire series of "the ascent of money."

i hope people are still paying attention to our economy. obama will be here in less than a week. but it's not looking good right now.

i just ate three just-a-burgers from what-a-burger for lunch. i feel like i want to take a nap, but i'm assuming my coworkers will become uneasy if i strip down bare and cuddle under my desk to take a little nap. i should take this up with HR.

i just purchased another book called "when genius failed."

i'm currently reading three books, one of which i'm reading for the second time. the first one is "the origins of financial crisis." that's the one for the second time and the two are called something and something about something. you can look it up.

tonight is top chef. i will firmly planted on the couch at 9:00 p.m. i would wager that carla is going home tonight. either her or a surprise pick like fabio. by the way, padma is smoking hot. my goodness.

don't let me down

the beatles playing on the roof at abbey road studios would easily get my vote as the coolest moment in rock and roll. imagine your favorite band, collecting their gear and setting up on the roof of a nearby building in downtown somewhere and they start playing new material. not only that, but look at the footage. they look cool as shit. they have beards and awesome british clothes with coats. and it looks cold and dreary and they're rocking out. it literally gives chills every time i see it.

"get back, get back, get back to where you once belonged."

stolen shoes and a rifle

"and a giant waking bird shakes the trees above my head
stolen shoes and a rifle, i just can't seem to stay dead."

phantom limb

i have extremely cracked knuckles right now. ever had cracked knuckles? makes like a little less fun. i also have droopy eyes. that's caused by lack of sleep. i have a lack of sleep because my wife chose to put her ice block feet against my leg last night and i woke up and jumped out of bed. droopy eyes is often the result of that situation.

nice piece on 60 minutes about oil speculation.

here's 44 places to go in 2009 from the nyt. if i could pick a place to go in 2009, it would be someplace warm. probably new zealand or austrailia.

i've been reading an excellent book: the origin of financial crises. i've already read it, i'm actually reading it again. i want all the ideas to soak in. i want to be able to justify these talking points or speak out against if i disagree with them. when people start asking questions and you don't really know the answer or even have a clue, it makes you look like a parrot. a lot of people my age are parrots.

here are some of the top accounting firms to work for in 2008. there's one on there from bellaire that my friend lindsey was working at until she failed two accounting classes and they had to let her go. that sucks.

bono's talking with the nyt.

to my friend who texted me the other day: congratulations!! i was unable to return the message. i will fill you in on the details in a more appropriate location, like skywriting.